⚠️ Trigger Warning + Disclaimer:
This entry contains real-time experiences of anxiety, panic, and health-related fears, including chest pain, intrusive thoughts, and physical symptoms.
This journal reflects my personal experience and is not medical advice. If you are experiencing severe or concerning symptoms, please seek professional medical care.
March 27, 2026
I woke up already anxious today.
Before I even got out of bed, I could feel it sitting in my chest. Not pain… just that feeling like something isn’t right.
I tried to ignore it.
But then my head started hurting.
Not a bad headache. Just a spot in the back of my head that felt… off.
And of course my brain didn’t just let it be a headache.
What if this is something serious?
What if something is wrong in my brain?
What if I’m about to pass out?
Then I heard that loud bang in my head again.
I wasn’t even falling asleep.
That’s the part that scares me the most. Because everything I’ve read says it happens when you’re falling asleep… so why is it happening when I’m awake?
Now I’m sitting there thinking something is wrong with my brain.
Like really wrong.
I kept rubbing the back of my head like that was going to fix it.
I hate that I can’t just feel something without my mind turning it into something else.
It’s like I don’t trust my own body.
And the crazy part is… I’ve felt this before.
And nothing ever happens.
But my brain still goes:
“This time is different.”
I hate that thought.
Because it feels real every single time.
And now I’m here again… scared… over something that probably means nothing.
I really thought this was it.
Again.