✨ I’m Still Here: What It Feels Like to Survive Another Anxiety Episode

Tonight, I felt like I was dying. Again.

It crept in, like it always does — quiet at first, then full-blown chaos. My head felt funny, my stomach flipped, and my brain told me it was something serious. A brain tumor. An aneurysm. Something fatal.

My hands got cold. My chest tightened.
I wanted to cry, scream, and run. I wanted it to stop.

And yet…
Here I am.
Still breathing.
Still here.

💬 What My Anxiety Looks Like

This wasn’t the first time I’ve felt this way. Honestly, it’s become a familiar cycle — one I wish I didn’t know so well.

I have:

• Health anxiety
• Cardiophobia
• And a brain that constantly convinces me I’m in danger, even when I’m not.

I’ve been to the ER more times than I can count. They check my heart, run a CBC, reassure me I’m okay… but the fear always comes back.

🧠 “What If This Time Is Different?”

Sometimes it’s not even panic.
It’s just a weird feeling in my head.
Pressure. Lightness. A shift I can’t explain.

And suddenly, my brain whispers:

“What if this time is different?”
“What if it’s really something?”

But it never is.
It’s anxiety. A chemical storm. A false alarm.

💪 Surviving Anyway

I’m a wife. A mom of five. I homeschool. I work.
And I fight daily to function while managing all of this inside me.

When anxiety hits, I track it in my spreadsheets. I reach for music. I ground myself. I pray. I breathe. I try.
And even when it doesn’t help — I survive it.

That’s what matters.

🌊 The Quiet Aftermath

What no one talks about is the aftermath.
The hours after the panic. When your body is wrecked and your brain is foggy. When you just sit there thinking:

“What just happened to me?”

That feeling is hard to explain unless you’ve lived it.
But if you have, I want you to know:

You are not alone.

💛 To Anyone in the Spiral Right Now

If you’re reading this while spiraling, please know this:

• Your body is scared, not broken.
• Your brain is lying to protect you.
• You are not weak.
• You will survive this moment like you have all the others.

From one Anxiety Momster to another:

You are still here. And that means you are stronger than the fear.

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