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This entry contains real-time experiences of anxiety, panic, and health-related fears, including chest pain, intrusive thoughts, and physical symptoms.
This journal reflects my personal experience and is not medical advice. If you are experiencing severe or concerning symptoms, please seek professional medical care.
March 24, 2026
I thought this was it.
It started in my head again.
That same spot in the back.
Just a weird ache.
Not even bad… but noticeable.
And that’s the problem.
Because once I notice it, my brain takes over.
Now I’m thinking something is wrong with my brain.
Something serious.
Something I don’t know about yet.
I kept touching the back of my head, like I was going to find something.
Like I could feel what was happening inside.
Then it got a little tighter.
That pressure feeling.
And I immediately went to the worst case.
Aneurysm.
I hate that word.
I hate that my brain even knows that word.
And then it happened again…
That loud “bang” feeling.
Out of nowhere.
Not while I was falling asleep. Not relaxing. Just… random.
And that scared me more than anything.
Because what is that?
Why does that happen?
Why does it keep happening to me?
I sat there trying to calm down, but my thoughts were already racing.
I was already convinced something was wrong.
But then…
it went away.
The ache faded.
The pressure eased up.
And once again…
nothing happened.
I hate how real it feels every single time.
Because in that moment…
I really thought this was it.